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[	Current Music	|	that babygirl song	]

so right now im bored @ work.. like usual.. so i decided to update..

nothing really new expect for all that stuff thats going on with me and my dad.. its gotten so old.. im seriously thinking about packing my stuff this week and moving out while hes in Miami.. then there won't be any problems.. thats the last thing i need right now is DRAMA because i move out. i just don't know because of the car situation..

so only 1 month from today till i leave to go to Indiana with Ryan and his family. should be intresting. im really excited about going but im also kinda nervous.. meeting his family is a big thing.. what if they don't like me? but it should be fun.. i need this "vacation". it'll be good for me!

[	Current Mood	|	peaceful	]
[	Current Music	|	"I think were alone now"	]

So todays the moment of truth.. weather my dad likes Ryan or not. i don't really care if he does or not because im going to be with him either way but it would be nice to have his blessing on something for a change. i just don't think he wants to let go of me.. and thats cool but dude, im 18 for god sake. so we'll see how it goes.. hopefully it'll go well.. and when i tell him im going to Indiana for 6 days with Ryan and his family hopefully that will go over good too.

my dads just gunna have to get use to Ryan.. looks like hes gunna be around for a looonnnggg time :-)

[	Current Mood	|	loved	]
[	Current Music	|	"I Do" by 98 degrees	]

Love. . .

is patient and kind;

love is not jealous,

or conceited or proud,

or provoked;

love does not keep

a record of wrongs;

love is not happy with evil

but is pleased

with the truth.

love never gives up;

its faith, hope, and

patience

never fail

[	Current Mood	|	chipper	]
[	Current Music	|	"Lets Go" by Trick Daddy	]

TEN YEARS AGO I
1. was 8 years old
2. was in third grade
3. lived in Florida

FIVE YEARS AGO I
1. was 13
2. was hanging out with the wrong people
3. was in middle school

TWO YEARS AGO I
1. was in highschool
2. still was not driving
3. was 16

ONE YEAR AGO I
1. started working
2. was 17
3. i graduated

YESTERDAY I
1. went to church
2. went and looked at furniture in a stoage thingie with justina
3. ate dinner with my mom, sisters and mark

TODAY I
1. worked
2. went tanning
3. hung out with justina and justin

TOMORROW I WILL
1. go to work
2. go to school
3. sleep

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dorky

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01. My hair is still its natural color.
02. I have yet to lose my virginity.
03. I get annoyed when I don't get to finish telling a story.
04. I like to wear pink.
05. Sometimes I wish I could do something really, really amazingly well.
06. I drink a lot of water.
07. I've never taken a hit of a cigarette.
08. I like music boys.
09. I'm a sucker for sweet talkers
10. I love taking pictures.
11. I have really tiny wrists.
12. I can identify some close friends by smell.
13. I'm far too nice.
14. I hate when people confuse "your" and "you're".
15. I think dorkiness is attractive.
16. I've never had a fake screen name.
17. I wish I had a pug.
18. I miss someone.
19. I have pretty good eating habits.
20. I have a hard time making up my mind sometimes.
21. I wish my hair naturally curled.
22. I can't live without chapstick.
23. I wish I could sing.
24. I like classical music.
25. Striped pants are hot.
26. I think Schylar is a really cool name.
27. I usually don't get sarcasm.
28. I wish I could look in a mirror and constantly be satisfied with myself.
29. I shift between being sleepy and awake when I'm really tired.
30. I hardly ever vacuum.
31. I hate racism.
32. I want someone to hold me.
33. I like watermelon flavored things.
34. I'm a snob about grammar.
35. I am a terrible liar.
36. Axe deodorant smells good.
37. I wish I knew how to speak in Italian
38. This "99 things about myself" list is harder than it looks.
39. I am learning to be happy wherever I am.
40. I have no idea what my school musical is about.
41. I appreciate honesty.
42. I need a manicure.
43. I love Dr. Pepper.
44. I twirl my hair.
45. I wish my hair was straight.
46. I don't own a cell phone.
47. I want to learn to play harp.
48. I'm not old enough to vote.
49. I live in the past far too much.
50. I need to remember to be a teenager sometimes.
51. I want to see most of the world.
52. Sometimes I wonder what's going on over in London.
53. I hate being lied to.
54. I believe in depending on love.
55. I go shopping usually once a week.
56. Today is Wednesday.
57. I've read more than a 100 books.
58. I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
59. I like feet.
60. I like getting compliments.
61. I want the world to see me.
62. I think it's funny when girls wear so much makeup that their faces become incandescent.
63. I hate seeing kids that think they're different because they like Slipknot and shop at Hot Topic.
64. I have a fear of wearing too much perfume.
65. I wear pants more than I wear shorts.
66. I am tactful most of the time.
67. I had to look ‘tactful’ up.
68. I'm afraid of spiders
69. I get too attached to some people.
70. I'm usually on time.
71. I forgive but I don't forget.
72. I think way too darn much for my own good.
73. My current "relationship" is teaching me a lot.
74. I like salads from McDonalds.
75. I read for at least two hours every night before bed.
76. I talk to a lot of people I don't like because I hate being rude.
77. I sing in the shower.
87. Laughing turns me on. Sexy laughs are sweet.
79. I wish I were asleep.
80. I love reeses cups.
81. I never have enough energy to do what I'm doing.
82. I have a friend who has an outtie bellybutton.
83. I have driven a car.
84. There is no nailpolish on my nails.
85. I am not afraid to change
86. I wear brown, thin-rimmed glasses.
87. Goodbyes make me sad.
88. 5.6.7.8 comes after 1.2.3.4.
89. I love cuddling.
90. I run when I'm bored.
91. I wish I were more attractive to others.
92. I worry too much sometimes about what people think.
93. Compliments annoy me.
94. I like long car rides with certain people.
95. I drink a lot of orange juice in the morning. .
96. I wonder a lot who I'm going to end up marrying.
97. I listen to the things no one else cares about.
98. I can't draw from imagination.
99. TyPiNg LIeK diS anNoyes mEeeh.

[	Current Mood	|	confused	]
[	Current Music	|	"Real World"~Matchbox 20	]

BEEN
to Disney World
to the funeral of someone too young to die
inside a sex club
weepy
melancholy
comforted
to the edge of insanity

I have...
commited random acts of kindness
cried without comfort
offered comfort 
had evil thoughts
Driven to fast
danced too hard
drank too much
laughed too loud
said stupid junk (LoL allll the time)
swore like a sailor
gossiped
commited adultery
left the scene of an accident
been to the abortion clinic
talked behind the back of a friend
been talked about by a friend
taken speed
taken cocaine
taken acid
cheated on tests
danced in the rain
watched a meteor shower 
cared for an orphaned animal
danced in the moonlight
cared for the dying
gotten hopelessly lost in new york
stood on the edge of a cliff
made prank phone calls
played practical jokes
suffered road rage
made friends with people you're never seen
had a crush on someone of the same sex
watched a rated x movie
searched for internet porn
lost a lot of weight
had an unrequited love
written letters you never meant to send
sent letters i wish i had never sent
hated
loved
been loved
won an award
seen a ufo
acted like an idiot (LoL another reaccurance for me..hahaha)
misbehaved
fallen off a horse
been strong
flirted with strangers
got lost in the woods
had phone sex
read cheesey love stories
shared a tub
broken someones heart
had my heart broken
had cancer

[	Current Mood	|	ecstatic	]
[	Current Music	|	"Im SO excited"	]

I PASSED!!!!

im soo happy!!!! i was so nervous when i got there but then i got the guy that i wanted yesterday! if i would have only gotten him yesterday i wouldn't of had to go back today and retake the test. but im happy i passed. its soo nice to be finally driving!! i don't have to rely on anyone anymore..i can just go and not have to worry about anything...life is good!!!

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crushed

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aahh im so mad at myself..i thought i was gunna do good on my drivers test today and i messed it up..ON BACKING UP!!! i was worried about not passing because of parking and i messed it up on backing up..and the funny thing is..when he told me to go park after i had failed i parked perfect...god damn it!!!! THIS SUCKS!!!

hopefully i can make it in either tomorrow or friday to take it again!!!